Since I’ve started writing this blog I have mostly talked about my natural disaster of thoughts that lead to my own inner chaos. Now I sitting wondering for those who don’t experience this chaos, as a norm, how you must be doing? Are these the individuals the ones buying in bulk and not realizing the entire world is experiencing this , at the same time.
This time it is not just an individual community, this time. It’s not like a mass shooting just occurred in one area and is experiencing this. It’s not another hurricane. It’s not another earthquake, tornado or volcanic eruption.
It’s not racists turning on each other. It’s not a hate crime. Maybe modern warfare, as we now know???? We don’t know and that’s probably the least pleasing aspect to all of this. Reality isn’t that we are entering one of the Fallout games. Just like modern warfare I am unable to give a definitive yes or no about an episode of the Walking Dead, though. Again, we only know zombies, as they were created and not as if they are real. A lot of this is really starting to look a little too familiar.
My truth in all of this, is I am not really surprised. I’m abnormally calm, in all of this. I see the effects already on those close to me and my heart breaks a little more every day. Honestly, I have self-quarantined myself for the past two weeks. I have had this damn cough for this long am not better. However, the way I see it is I am doing exactly what I should be doing, at this very moment. Even if I don’t have it, I don’t want to get it because I am that sick. I am not exposing myself to the rest of you. Other than using these words to inspire you.
I am doing everything I can to stay grounded because it’s another opportunity to see what we can do, in a time where society needed to hit rock bottom to build itself back up.
I’m not saying I wish my chaos of my diagnosis on anyone, but it is nice to know that if anything that comes out of this may be a new understanding. Maybe this is the “mom,” society desperately needed. In the end, we’re just all skeletons with nothing to set us apart from each other without our skin. What a breath of fresh air.
The Bee Keeper 