I have ample time to do it all. Yet, I sit here wondering why the commitment I can give to an emotion is found nowhere else. It leaves an emptiness of insecurity. The magnetic force pushing towards the negative, but the + says its positive. Still making a wall more important than what’s right out of a dream. Annoyance and frustration, at the same time. The Yin fighting the Yang. You still seek answers from another realm and fighting the present. It presents itself as lonliness.
I know nothing but the yearn. A sense of a loss of control, whenever, it was never yours to play. I need that energy to fight the fear of rejection. Now my words are silent. The words hiding the truths that brings internal peace. Are you listening?
I spend the hours in seclusion to get away from the energies that suck me dry. On the daily your energies weigh down my soul making a struggle ensue to find my own energy. Now that I have all the voices no longer taking control of my soul, it is non- existent in the isolation. What purpose that once served my soul has gone into their own silence taking away the noise. It leaves a sense of goodbye in its wake. Reach out to me.